I recently came across this that I wrote sometime last year but never posted. My search for God's will involves growing by learning more about who God is, keeping myself open to Him, and what happens when I do that. God speaks in unexpected ways.
God is good.
God’s love is constant and never changing.
Romans 8:38-39 says, “neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” God's love is part of my daily life - their is nothing, absolutely nothing, that can change that.
I have learned that when we find ourselves going through dark days, it does not mean that God’s love has changed or that God has disappeared and abandoned us.
In August 2011, I was, quite unexpectedly, diagnosed with appendix cancer. A CT scan also revealed two large masses in my lower abdomen and back. Suddenly, I was faced with major surgery followed by an extended recovery. A little voice spoke up in the back of my head asking, “So, is God still good?” I had cancer. It may have spread. The masses could be malignant. So the question I was forced to consider: “Is God still good?”
For me, the answer was yes.
If the surgery removed all traces of cancer, if the masses turned out to be benign, and if my recovery went smooth, then God is good. He is the one who guides the surgeon’s hands. He is the God who can provide physical healing. He has a plan for my life and there is still more for me to do.
But I realized that the opposite was also true. If the surgery resulted in the finding of more cancer, if I had to have further treatments or surgeries, if I died, then God is good. He is the God who redeemed me. He forgave me, cleaned me up, and gave me a new life with a new purpose. He is the one who has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams over the past few years. He will continue to be my rock and my refuge. Yes, God is good.
I told literally everyone I knew what I was facing. I asked them all to pray for me, to pray for the doctors, and to pray for my family. I learned that there is incredible strength to be found in the knowledge that others are lifting you up to God in prayer. I went into surgery on September 28, 2011 with this attitude.
Whatever happens God is good.
Whatever happens His Will be done.
Four hours and three surgeons later I was wheeled out of surgery 14 pounds lighter and cancer free. God is good! I am still recovering from the experience. I still marvel at the miracle of it all. I felt such peace as I faced an unknown situation. That peace was a gift from God and I am so very thankful for that. And I praise God for the healing he has blessed me with. I am looking forward to growing more in God’s Word as I continue to live out His purpose in my life. He’s not finished with me yet!